Lets start at the beginning...
Updated: Apr 3, 2020
Well, the beginning of this stage of my life at least! In 2008 I was 28 years old, happily married and about to give birth to my first son. Life was good. But little did I know it was about to come tumbling down.
Suffice to say, my delivery was anything but routine. 36 hours in Labour (no pain relief) eventually resulting in forceps; I was completely traumatised.
The forceps delivery left me with a 3rd degree tear and damage to my bladder. I was later diagnosed with Interstitial cystitis; a chronic pain disorder with no cure. Over the next 9 years I had 10 operations to help manage the pain. Some more successfully than others, but nothing that was long lasting.
I also suffered badly with post natal depression. Later, after seeking the help of a specialist councillor, I was told it was more likely post natal PTSD.
But i was stubborn and determined to have another child. It took 2 years with my specialist councillor before I felt ready. I also insisted on a elective c-section!
The 2nd pregnancy was tough as I had to come off my pain meds. But I got through it. However, following the successful delivery of my 2nd son, I once again fell victim to post natal depression.
I lost myself for a very long time. Not only was I struggling with 2 children under 4 and depression, but I had given up Dancing to become a full time mum, so I felt like I'd lost my identity.
Eventually over time, and with the incredible support of my husband, I came out the other side. I decided to re-train as a Personal Trainer, knowing I wanted to specialise in Womens Fitness, and I've never looked back.
I hope this first blog post gives you a little more insight into me. I also hope it gives you hope.
My qualifications and life experience mean I really do understand. Being a woman is tough. But women are also extremely strong.
No matter what blocks your path, you will find a way to overcome it and keep moving forward.